Struggle

I would be dishonest if I was not forthcoming in how I have been struggling with a handful of little things. I think that the trap that is so easy to fall into is thinking that things should not feel so hard sometimes.

I know that I have different struggles than the saints of the church that came before me, and honestly I feel like there is not much I should even be struggling with. I start to feed into the trap of the enemy that I am worthless, and that I am struggling because I have no faith.

I wonder how many of us slip into struggle, by falling into the beginnings of despair worrying about things we should be giving to Our Lord; but instead we hold onto them because we think that God shouldn’t have to deal with this.

Our Father wants us to come to Him for all things, especially when we start to think that maybe He shouldn’t have to help us. We are made strong by Him, and only through admitting our need and coming to Our Lord can we hope to endure.

Being slowly crushed by our stranglehold on our problems is not helpful, and Our Heavenly Father does not want us to do that to ourselves. If we cannot let go of things, we should examine why we really are holding on.

It has taken me almost two weeks to write all this down. I have walked into distraction, and entertained self pity and castigation. I am just now being led out the other side of this pit, and pray that we are all open to being led to the restful waters of Our Lord.