While I was getting ready this morning I was thinking about God’s love. I was going down the road of thought, that I cannot make God love me more. Nothing I do can or will earn His love, or make me more or less worthy. So what is it that actually changes?
I think the only thing we can do, as we respond to God’s grace and mercy we are changed little by little. We are able to receive more of God’s love, not that the amount He loves us changes, but our ability to receive, process, hold, and exchange love with Our Father that changes. The change is in us, and only us.
We open our hearts to God by varying degrees and ways. By little ways, in busying ourselves with His work, with Christ’s mission. You know, as the one who sent Christ, He sends us. Charity really is a root of what our work should be. Charity – in time, in love, in food, in clothing, in community with each other.
As we do these things, we open our heart more and more to God, and then something miraculous happens. We are able to be filled with more of God’s love. In turn if we continue to do the work of the one who sent Christ (God the Father), then we are able to receive more of His love.
I found myself really struggling with the stupidest things that really boiled down to pride with a little bit of comfort disruption, and laziness. I have been more joyful the last couple of weeks, and these things have barely been a whisper to me. I think I finally stopped trying to “hear God”, or “find out what His will is in this situation.”, and I prayed when I began to feel the tension and hear the whispers to whip up my emotions. I asked my guardian angel, and my brothers and sisters in Heaven to pray for me, specifically what my issue was, and then I stopped worrying about it.
It was almost an overnight change. I just realized that unless “I” focused on these things, they were of no consequence any longer. So I stopped looking for them.
Sometimes our pain, hurt, fear, or whatever we are dealing with; sometimes it is more comfortable than the unknown of love. Love for who caused the damage. Loving God through the discomfort, accepting His love in our downward moments.
Let’s pray for each other, for hearts open to God’s love, and the strength to surrender ourselves to it.
