I have been struggling with distractions lately. If I am being honest, it has been downright difficult to put my phone, or the television down, or off. I have become increasingly convicted of feeling like I am wasting time. Truthfully, I know I am.
Part of writing this today is to help sort my thoughts and hopefully help someone if they are having similar issues.
I make sure to set time aside to pray and for devotions, and even some contemplation. Specifically the last like five days, I have been extremely convicted of the time I don’t spend with or for Our Lord. I have been asking for help from my guardian angel, the Holy Spirit, and some brothers and sisters in Our Father’s glory for assistance.
I have been given grace to be hyper aware and even have a much easier time turning my focus to something constructive. It has been tempting at times to get down or be mean spirited to myself. I think that is part of the enemies trick of guilt and shame, that we really rake ourselves over the coals for simple or low hanging things. Not to say that we should not be aware of our shortcomings, but guilt and shame should not crowd out repentance.
We just have to humble ourselves and entrust all of those ways we are lacking to God’s love, mercy, and grace. We have to have faith that He truly can make up for our weaknesses. That we being justified by His grace, we act in love and do His will.
I kind of think of it similarly to the liturgy of the Eucharist. I rarely feel worthy to receive Christ, but because I feel so unworthy, I make sure that I adore Him in the blessed sacrament when He is raised and offered for us. So especially when we feel unworthy, we have to keep moving towards Christ, and we have to trust that His sacrifice is sufficient.
So if there is something you are struggling with: repent with all your heart, pray for a turning of your heart, pray for help to love God and accept His love for you. Remember, Christ’s sacrifice is sufficient, even if you can’t believe it right now.
